By So-so Jackson
Trigger: Reference to Mental Health & Suicide
They told me that nothing can,
Will, or is to be done.
However I stand here defiant at the bottom screaming against the wind.
My lungs burn yet I don’t feel breathless
Eyes are concrete heavy yet I’m not tired
Thighs are snapped
Ankles are swollen
Knees are stiff
Calves are shot
Yet still I wanna take another step.
Sweat cascades my brow but I’m a cool Breeze that can’t be broken My heart drums out in rapid time
Alas I’ve never felt more serene in this Moment.
“You can’t do it!
Stop you’re not gonna make it
It’s pointless
Why bother
You’re nothing”
That’s what they’ll say.
That’s what the demons will whisper
What the haters will write
What the non-believers will believe
Alas let me tell you what I see:
“You CAN do it
You WILL make it
There IS a point to it all
Please DO bother
You are SOMETHING “
We as ourselves judge ourselves
The harshest
We as ourselves need to love ourselves the mostest
I know it’s hard to face that mirror
I get it’s hard to wanna rise from that bed
I see it’s hard to wanna continue to struggle
However I implore you
It’s worth it in the end
Not the end where you throw in the towel Not the end where you call out early
I know that end is tempting
I almost chose that ending myself
Alas yet here I stand
I want you to stand with me
I don’t care about your flaws
I want you to stand with me
I don’t give a crap about your mistakes I want you to stand with me
I don’t mind that you’re broken
I WANT YOU TO STAND WITH ME
I’m not claiming I ll fix you
That isn’t my job
You don’t even need to be fixed
Because YOU are in-fact enough
I’m not here to give you salvation
This ain’t about religion or philosophy
Having faith in yourself is a crucial step tho
Because YOU are a miracle in the making
I’m not here to save you
I can’t be your Superman
You’ve had the power inside you all along
Because YOU are your own Superhero
So yeah they told us there is nothing to be done
Yet here we now boldly stand
At the bottom no longer
Our strength linked together hand in hand We’ve come a long way
And we still got more to do
However let us fight
Let us live
For the ending that is rightfully ours
Don’t give up
Don’t look down for long
Instead look up
As the sun washes over our faces And a new day brings about a Triumphant
Healing
Strong
Jubilant
Happy
Courageous
Loving Song